Wednesday, November 12, 2003

test post from blogger control.
fiona at 9:51 AM

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

You know what ?

I'm always catching myself red handed for being stupid and more. And in this case , hypocrital ( is there such a word ? Anyway the meaning's there.).

* conversation flashback *

fiona : yah but she drives me up the wall like totally

terry : why don't ya just tell her straight to her face ?

fiona : i would love to but she's my friend , damn it !

terry : *pregnant pause*

fiona : this really sucks ! i mean , she's like so selfish but we hafta put up with it

** end of flashback **

Thats when i stunned myself. Boy oh boy. I admit it. I AM selfish. ( ok so the above conversation has nothing to with my selfishness buts its there just to make my point )I am selfish in the way that i get so easily jealous , even if they're my good friends. LIke if my gal-friend snagged this really handsome guy , i'd be like "ooh.. thats great!" but inside i'd be kinda fuming. And this kinda behaviour's so totally wrong that i disgust myself ! And thats just one of many faults that builds me up.
fiona at 11:39 PM

I Live with him, I see his face;
I go no more away
For visitor, or sundown;
Death’s single privacy,

The only one forestalling mine,
And that by right that he
Presents a claim invisible,
No wedlock granted me.

I live with him, I hear his voice,
I stand alive to-day
To witness to the certainty
Of immortality

Taught me by Time,—the lower way,
Conviction every day,—
That life like this is endless,
Be judgment what it may.

- Emily dickinson , 1924


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Emily dickinson. A name unfamiliar to you but she writes the best poetry around.
fiona at 11:07 PM

Another birthday gone. Received a substantial amount of presents but somehow , somewhere deep in the realms where the part of my brain controls my thoughts , i feel unsatisfied. I'm lacking something , but what ?


fiona at 8:53 PM

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

to hell with whatever they say abt "family togetherness". I hate my dad ( most of the time ) and the only times when he is being nice to me is when his girlfriend is around. Its true. If you want me to cite the reasons why i say so , the list'll go on to encircle the globe several times. On weekends ( when his girlfriend is around ) , he'll be cracking alot of jokes to his gf , actions i've never seen before when she's not around. He is so biased !!!! Take what happened just now. I took 40 min in the shower and he was hurling vulgarities when i came out . And he never says a word when She takes like 1 hr in the bathroom !! I rest my case.

I have doubts about Auntie Joyce's ( thats how i address her ) family. I don't think they have any clue of my presence cuz there were times when i needed to contact her regarding stuff like where she placed my nail polish etc and i wanted to call her home but my dad refused and insisted on him making the call for me. Well. Thats quite evident isnt it ? And that why i suspect that i am the reason that they're not married yet. Anyway when they finally do tie the knot , i'll be faced with another dilemma. How the hell am i supposed to attend their wedding dinner ? What the heck ? Attending your parent's wedding dinner ? SOunds so absurd ! And what am i supposed to call her after that ? Mum ? Sorry i don't think so ! BUt then again i dun wanna offend anyone.. And what is even better is that my mum ( the real one ) is gettin hitched two. How nice. Two sets of parents. Blehhhhhhhh

Happy birthday to me !

fiona at 11:48 PM

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fiona at 9:09 PM

Good evening ladies and gentlemen. Welcome aboard Flight FTJC 1943 and this your Fiona Tan , your friendly pilot speaking. We wil be experiencing major air turbulence in a matter of seconds and you are advised to fasten your seatbelts or risk gettin thrown off the plane.

Muahaha. Was rudely woken up by D early in the morning and that moron was pestering me to go have brunch with him ... was reluctant but agreed anyway and met him downstairs where we proceeded to whitesands... after which we parted for he got to work today. Noon i went to AMK library with Pei and Nicholas to 'study' , all of which lasted for a mere 20 min or so before we prowled AMK central lookin for food.

Hur hur. Met up with my schoolmate aaron at the void deck of my ah ma's house . He dyed his hair an orangey-brown !! Gave me quite a shock. Anyway he gave me somethin which turned out to be my birthday present and i was kinda embarrased for dunno what reason. And guess what ? It turned out to be this really gigantic poster of JAY!!!!!! But it was marred by the appearance of my disgusting photo in the top left hand corner. LOL.

I was really disappointed just now when i was emptying my bag of its contents for i had forgotten to take Terry's present , a box of Godiva assorted chocolates out !!!!! It had been hidden in my bag with the other presents since friday and its not surprising that it had melted into a chocolatey mass and i was so pissed with myself for being so forgetful !!!! Not because i didnt get to eat the chocolates i loved so well , but .... i don't know. Its like i'm doing somethin wrong. But the flowers he gave me are dryin out better than i expected , and its really nice tho' my dad is suspicious and he keeps askin about person who gave me roses . Well. I'm placing the melted chocolate in the fridge anyway .

HA~ Last week to go before my O levels and i'm still slackin hard. Gee. BUCK UP FIONA TAN~~~~~~~

Folks , remember to drop me an email when u're free !
Banana_hamster@hotmail.com








fiona at 8:41 PM

Saturday, October 25, 2003

Typical match scene : djemba djemba to scholes.... passes to giggs....Nistelrooy crosses in.. Nistelrooy....Still nistelrooy.... and its a GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Phweeeeeet* Oh no ! Its an offside ! (fictional )

Not that i'm complaining of course. Anti-climax maybe , but since i'm describing an offside for Man U i'm more than willing to do so. And the score now stands at Manu 1-3 to fulham !!! Miracle !!!!!!!!

Woo. Stayed at home all day today with intentions to study . Nursed a bad tummy cramp throughout the day and i watched this B-grade movie flick titled Rough Air on channel 5 in the evening.I can't believe that i'm watching TV cuz i seldom watch TV . Anyway i'm so glad to have caught this cuz i got bowled over by this guy named Eric roberts and he's the lead actor in this movie. OMG he has such dreamy eyes and although he's already 56 he looks 20 years younger. He charmed me off my feet man ! Trivia : he's julia roberts bro ! But estranged.
fiona at 11:43 PM

Urghh. I puked yesterday in full view of everyone after those morons forced two cans of stout on me. It wasnt the alcohol that did it , it was the sheer disgusting rancid taste of that vile liquid tgat made me do a merlion. Damn! Overall we had fun but nothing really memorable. I like the bailey's irish cream that terry concocted for us... chocolatey stuff laced with whisky...... mmh... went down quite smoothly but i got a lil groggy after a while... ehh too much of a good thing is a bad thing !
fiona at 3:55 PM

Friday, October 24, 2003

Hello folks.

Guess what ? The time now is 6pm and I am now at Danny’s house using his state-of-the-art computer system that’s fitted with an impressive flat screen plasma monitor that gives me the headache cuz’ of the strong glare , and the infra-red keyboard and mouse , all of which are really ingenious gizmos and the best thing is that everything is in ivory black ! Woo hoo…. And worse still he has 2 more exact computer sets in his sister’s and brother’s bedroom. Talk about being green with jealousy !! Anyway I’m here to attend a BBQ cum birthday(s) party . Whose birthday ? Ah , it is none other than yours truly and Danny’s girlfriend , rosie , also a good friend of mine. Her birthday falls on Sunday and hence the double celebration. I’m a bit guilty for being in the comforts of danny’s room while the others are toiling over the setting up of the BBQ pit .But ah , being the birthday girl has privileges , ya ?

Omg. I love danny’s house so much that I’m goin to dedicate tis paragraph wholly for it. It’s a quaint semi-D house right smack in the middle of a rustic pasir ris neighbourhood. The façade is simple and zen-like , with a small bare but picturesque garden that is carpeted with well trimmed lawn grass , and a small pond with a few water lilies with a weeping willow towering over it. Inside of his house is a haven for zen-fans out there. A bare and simplistic look with monotone features . And its fully air-conditioned!!

Ju looks totally hot in her pink floral sundress from Zara and Jiesheng just couldn’t take his eyes off her. Hee. That buaya. Anyway from where I am sitting now the window’s right beside me and I have a totally good view of the garden from here. HH’s just arrived and Terry’s lurking around suspisciously around the buffet spread. Speaking of HH , that ass gave me a see through g-string with lace trimmings and it looked like it came out from a porn catalogue for my birthday last year. I am NOT looking forward to this year’s present from him. I’m not looking forward to later too cuz I spy bottles of vodka and other stuff like bailey’s on the beverage table and I have a dark feeling about it.

I’m kinda sad cuz my friends from school apparently forgot about my birthday and I’m keeping my fingers crossed that at least one would wish me happy birthday when Tuesday comes. Well , guess its time for me to hit the food for I see smoke coming out from the bbq pit and that’s a good sign. Till later .

fiona at 6:31 PM

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Hoo. Just came back from studying at East Coast with Ju. of course , the beach isnt exactly the most suitable place for a study session but Ju insisted on it and i couldnt bear to reject her good intentions. What kinda good intentions ? Well you see , firstly , we made good use of our situation and we chose the table-n-bench in the sunniest spot instead of the shadiest. Why the hell would we do that , you might ask. The thing is , i havent got a tan in like monthhhssssss and Ju's tan was fading. The sky became a lil overcast later so the purpose was beat though Ju became a lil bit darker .... Not sure for me tho' cuz i was sure she was only consoling me when she said with all enthusiasm that "Yea fio duncha worry you look fine dear'. Yeah right.

Secondly , and most imporantly to Ju , was to ogle at guys while she taught me physics . Ju had this thing for beach boys and she sure was disappointed today for she forg0t that today's a Thursday and the beach was vacated. Anyway she managed to drool over the topless and hunky bicycle and skates rental guys and decided that one of them actually looked like DJ Utt. I have no opinions whatsoever. Hee. We actually survived 3 hours of studying and we had the unfortunate luck of being at the receiving end of a bird's dropping. A bit of greenish goo laced with milky white stuff landed on my shoulder and the other load landed on Ju's shorts ( which had her hollering out "Its my new roxy shorts you damn fuckin bird!). Talk about hitting the bull's eye.The shit left a greenish stain on my uniform which i doubt it can be washed off.
fiona at 5:46 PM

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

today i was unfortunate enough to go home by myself today as everyone else had maths test . I was even more unfortunate enough to be taking the same bus with three unknown juniors who sat behind me. I was having this massive headache and it didnt help that they were talking so damn loudly like they owned the bus in their squeaky voices. T

The next thing i knew , the girls were commenting loudly about this apparently homeless ( he had bags of plastic carriers with him stuffed with stuff ) , dressed in rags and barefooted elderly man sleeping on a seat in the bus stop. The bus had stopped at this stop and the girls spotted this underprivileged and pitiable man but instead of voicing out their sympathies they said stuff like "EEww.... Look at his feet!! So dirty ! I bet they stink" To which another would reply "Ya yah !! He looks like he stepped on shit" And this was responded by a chorus of girlish giggles. I was like... What the Fuck ?! Where were their consciences ? I turned back , with all intentions to rebuke them , but instead , all i could manage was a measly "Shut up!" before giving them three the once over and turned back. I was really infuriated at that time , damn , everyone's getting educated , but what good will an education do if they don't even have the most basic moral values instilled in them ? All those shit about promoting Civics and Moral education as claimed by the Govt are bull !
fiona at 10:26 PM